sugar.
Journal Entry:
Fri Nov 20, 2009, 6:40 PM
trapped.
i'm trapped in a corner.
there's nowhere to go now. no way to escape.
that monster. that -- that thing!
it was after me, im sure of it.
in a few seconds he'll come for me.
there's nothing left that i can do now.
im not religious, but i might as well...
i bow my head, put my hands together, close my eyes, "our father, who art in heaven..", and started praying for dear life.
"holy be thy name. thy kingdom come, thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. give us --"
i stopped. i could feel its breath warm on my face.
i didn't want to open my eyes, but curiousity got the best of me.
"ohgod...." i took one deep breath and, ever so slowy, opened my eyes.
"peek-a-boo" it said with a smile on its indescribably hideous face.
i screamed as loud as i could. i never thought they day would come that i'd have to face him again.
but here he is, and here i am. just like old times.
"aww, what's the matter sugar? i thought you'd be happier to see me." he said.
"wha--what are you doing here?! you're not real!" i screamed.
"i know you know better than that. you've always been a smart girl, ever since you were little. you were never the
one to listen to your parents when they told you i wasnt real. you knew better." he said, as if it were a good thing.
"but..but i..i thought i got rid of you." i racked my brain for those memories i vowed never to remember.
"you never got rid of me, sugar. i was just simply..waiting for the right time to show myself"
"no! you can't..you can't be here..you just..no..its..its...not..real..it's\" i stuttered.
"calm down..im not going to hurt you, sugar. have i ever done such a thing?" he asked.
he slowly stretched out his hand to try and touch my face.
his hand was coming closer and closer.
i panicked. my heart was pumping, my breath's were fast. my thoughts were racing.
"don't touch me..." i tried to beg. "don't, please!"
but to no avail..
his outstretched hand was still coming closer and closer.
"DON'T!!!!!!!!!" i screamed as loud as i could.
"woah,woah..hey,sweetie..it was just a dream..shh,shh..come here" he held me tight and i look around.
im safe.
there's no one here but us -- me and mike.
no one else. just us. no monster, no -- no THING.
i breathed in deeply. i inhaled and slowly exhaled.
he held me tighter and rocked me.
"don't worry,shh..im here love,im here..it was all a dream" mike said.
i finally calmed down, and my breathing had gone back to normal.
"what happened? are you alryt?" he asked.
"i dont know,just a dream i guess..but it seemed so real,it was like..it was.." i began to describe.
"shh,shh,shh..no need to explain" he held me tighther and kissed my forehead "that's all it was..no worries,love..im here."
i gave in and buried my head in his chest while he held me and rocked me back and forth.
we stayed like that for what seemed like forever, until he let go.
i looked at him confused. "what's wrong?" i asked.
"nothing,i was just finishing up some work in the study when i decided to check up on you..i was halfway to the room when i heard you scream..i ran as fast as i could"
"what work?" i asked.
"just some things that need finishing up by tomorrow..no big." he answered.
"oh..oh,uhm..im fine now,just get back to that." i said.
"what? no, im not leaving you."
"no,its fine..i'll go back to sleep..you do you're work,i'm alryt now" he didn't seem convinced. "i promise.."
"are you sure love?" he asked.
i gave him a half-hearted smile and said "yes..now go."
"okay,i'll be right down the hall at the study if you need me okay? just call out for anything"
"okay." i said
"love you." he said while stroking my cheek.
"love you too." i replied.
mike left the room.
i crawled back into bed.
i was half-asleep already when i heard a soft rustling sound from somewhere beside me.
i switched on my bedside lamp.
"peek-a-boo" he said.
"AHH!" i screamed " ---- HELP! HE's HERE, HE's BACK!"
i screamed and begged for help as loud as i could.
i was close to tears. i knew no one was coming to save me.
"HELPPPP!"
still..no one came.
"please..." i whispered hoping someone would come.
"help me.."
"save me...."
"come, now, sugar. did you really think that i'm just a dream?" he said with the same smile.
- Listening to: paradise city by guns and roses.
- Watching: Mtv.
- Playing: music.
- Eating: peanuts.
- Drinking: apple juice.
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don't take life too seriously; nobody gets out alive anyway..
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Saudade
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don't take life too seriously; nobody gets out alive anyway..
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Saudade
My Journal [link]
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don't take life too seriously; nobody gets out alive anyway..
--
Saudade
My Journal [link]
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